Time really does fly. When I was growing up, I never expected to live past 25. I lived my life full throttle, wide open, trying to experience everything there was to experience, with my main focus being chemicals and mind altering substances. The youth of that time was taught almost anything that was fun or exciting was harmful, dangerous, and bad for you. Bad for your health, your soul, and your social status. Maybe that was part of the appeal and what made some things exciting, was simply knowing that adults and society frowned upon whatever it was. If it was illegal, immoral, or not allowed I wanted it and I wanted lots of it. I never dreamed all of these years later I would still be alive and have even one brain cell alive. I did not do much planning for my future. My life has been a blast so far, and if I died tomorrow I could say that I enjoyed a lifetime of experiences that many people who live many years more than I have never have the opportunity to enjoy. I am only forty something but I guess when you stay awake for five or six days you don't lose that time that sleep steals from most people. I guess I have twice the time that most people have to add to my been there, done that list. Let me tell you, in my younger days I did some crazy shit. No other way to describe it, crazy shit. When you let go, and live your life like today is your last day, do what you want and couldn't care less who is offended, hurt or upset, you have no boundaries and the sky is the limit. I still live my life following that philosophy, only now the things that I want to do offends no one, others are not hurt or upset by my actions. I am forty something years old and have been me for long enough that the people in my life know I will never change and have accepted me as me. The people who did not approve of the way I live my life and thought they could change me must have finally gave up and have left me alone. Its not that I am a bad or evil person, I just live my life the way I want to live it- regardless of the consequences. I treat people the way I want to be treated, and that means respecting peoples freedom to be themselves. Some people assume that things that make them happy should make everyone happy, and that's not how it works.